Horrendous….🀬

So in the last few weeks Marnie has become the spawn of something terrifying! We went out birthday present shopping for a friend of Darcey’s this afternoon and Marnie has decided that seat belts are for wimps. Like seriously… what is her issue with a seat belt?! I don’t understand it. Darcey was never the kind of child to try and get out of her buggy, car seat, high chair. None of that. So this is all new to me. How do you stop a child trying to escape a belt that’s there to save their lives?! Someone please give me some advice. I knew this was a thing, but it’s terrifying that she could escape whilst I’m driving!

Apart from the dramatic change in Marnie, I feel things are in the up with us as a family. I have my new Cricut machine and I’m designing stuff to start selling. At the moment I’ve got a lot of cake toppers and t shirt slogans and stuff ready to print. Just need the t shirts to print them on. I’m in the hope that I can get hold of a sewing machine so I can get creating with fabric too. I’m excited for this part of my life to get going.

Darcey isn’t six yet, but thought it was a good opportunity to practice a cake topper. First attempt is pretty good, I think. πŸ€”

I have to apologise for not being active the past few weeks. Please don’t hold that against me, it’s just been a bit busy. What with Marnie turning into a brat again (Not sure she stopped to be honest). And it’s almost the end of the school year for Darcey. So I’ll be back with things we’ve made for the teachers to say ‘Thank you’.

Is this me for good…?

I’ve not been about for a while. I’ve definitely hit a wall, emotionally. I’m not sure how or when it happened, but I’ve not been feeling myself for a while now. I reached out to Matt, Ali and my other friend, Neta about it and they helped a ton. I thought I could have possibly dealt with it by myself and hadn’t said anything for a few months, obviously that didn’t work. I broke down in tears to Matt and he asked me what’s wrong. I had no idea. Darcey wasn’t listening to anything I said to her, Marnie was being her usual whinge bag self and I just couldn’t handle it any longer. I can always tell Matt never knows what to say or do (he gives good cuddles though). It just feels like I’m failing as a mummy and a wife. I’m constantly telling the girls No and don’t feel like Matt and I are doing much together. But it could just be one of those situations when you’re just stuck in a rut and you have to get yourself out of it. I don’t know.

Ali and Neta both said I need to get back to exercising again and I know they’re right, I just don’t seem to have any motivation at the moment. Where can I buy some or do you have any spare?! Even Darcey has noticed that I don’t go to Triline anymore and asked when we’re going to go back. I’m not entirely sure that Triline is on my agenda at the moment. I’d like to get my fitness up by myself. I need to do that. I have to do that. I loved doing Insanity for the two months I did it, but just stopping probably wasn’t the best solution because now I’m in this situation emotionally. I’m not going to get to my goal of being two dress sizes smaller before Christmas just sitting here feeling sorry for myself. I want to exercise, I want to feel good about myself again.

So that’s me at the moment. Hopefully I can sort myself out and be me again.

Let’s go Fly a Kite…

So we had a spontaneous trip out to the local “Great Park” over the weekend. We had bought Darcey a kite last year. Just a beginners one. It’s a butterfly with a super long tail. She loves it. We stepped out of the car and almost was taken down by the wind! It was so strong! Walked a bit from the car park to the top of the hill and got the kite ready to fly. It’s a great feeling being outside with the girls. They love being outdoors and doing cool stuff like this. I recently downloaded the Geocache App and we’ve been out looking around for them in the town we live in. We’ve found one out of five so far. We’re not the best at looking for them. Darcey always needs the toilet at random times and Marnie moans when we’re standing around in one place for a length of time.

Anyway, back to the kite flying. We spent about 45 minutes flying a kite in the cold windy spring we’re having here at the moment. Marnie grew tired of looking at a kite flying, so we went to look for trains floating across the countryside landscape. “TRAIN TRAIN MAMA”. It’s there somewhere. πŸ€·πŸ½β€β™€οΈ

Darcey just runs around with the handle in her hand in the hope to flick it up and it’ll fly. “Darcey you won’t need to run around. It’s so windy, it’ll just pick it up” – she carries on running. Cue ‘slap on the face’ emoji.

That’s her, running.

“Mummy. I’m really cold, can we go to the park now?”

“Yeah, I think daddy is going to buy you a hot chocolate on the way”

“I want an ice cream”

Yeah that’ll help with being cold.

*rolls eyes*

What is it with children and eating/drink random things. I caught Marnie dipping her fish fingers in her water the other day. I would love to see the look on people’s faces if adults were to eat like children. Especially two year olds! πŸ˜‚

Darcey was grumpy, so couldn’t smile for any photo. Marnie just wanted to be picked up and was moaning. Standard procedure. Then there’s me. Pretending to be a mum with no dramas. πŸ€”

New ventures…

So I’m one of those people that have great ideas, but never really fully achieve them. Or strive to achieve them. I think that’s mainly to lack of funds to start anything up. But I want to make a good life for us and the girls. I want them to have things that I never had. I want to give them opportunities that I never got the chance to do. I grew up in a single parent family. Me, my mother and my brother. She worked in a fast food place during the night so we didn’t really see her during the daylight hours. We’d either be at school or she would be sleeping. This probably didn’t happen all the time, but you know when memories just “stick”. Those are the memories that I just remember. We were on Free School Meals. So had our hot dinner at lunch time and didn’t really eat when we were home. Mum never had enough money to buy a fridge full of food. So you can see why I want more for Darcey and Marnie. So this new venture at the moment is still for Bear&Moo, but it’s more than a blog now. I’m making Mickey Mouse magnets. Apparently it’s a thing you buy when you go a Disney Cruise. I had no idea these existed! I would love to take the girls on the Disney Cruise. It’s the top thing on my “if I won the lottery” list. Here’s a preview of what I’m talking about…

These took me about five hours to make. I still need to do the finishing touches on the back. But I’m super happy with the way they turned out. I can’t wait to order more templates and get all other characters done. I’m starting small but by the end. I’m thinking big things! Watch this space…

Money Saving Hacks…

So after being a mum for over five years. I’ve managed to do things on the cheap side. Here’s a few I’ve done so far.

  1. Going out for dinner with a toddler. Don’t pay for their own food. They hardly eat anything anyway. With Marnie I buy something for me and feed her off my plate. Going out for dinner is expensive anyway and restaurants expect a two year old to eat the same as a five year old. It doesn’t always work like that. Not saying all toddlers are the same as Marnie, who is a grazer. But this is a good money saving hack. And if we can. We take a picnic out with us.
  2. Save money on nappies. Try using shops own brands. Tesco have 52 nappies for Β£2.99! Pampers are more than twice the price. This money saver depends on your child’s need for wee and depends on your preference I guess. But Tesco own brand is great for us and mega cheap. We did use re-useable nappies for the first year of Marnie’s life, which I highly recommend! You spend a lot to get the nappies started and getting the liners and detergent, but that’s it. It’s definitely worth doing if you’re short on cash or care about land fill sites! I just couldn’t use them when Marnie got so big. You know….. Big poopsπŸ’©
  3. Try shops own brand food. Fresh fruit and veg is so expensive. Especially if your children are like mine and will eat fruit all day everyday if I let them! Tinned fruit is just as good, just find the ones in their own juice not the syrup.
  4. Our four weekly food planner is a lifesaver sometimes. I found meal ideas on ‘Pinterest’ and in ‘Ella’s Kitchen’ cookbooks. It’s all healthy and easy to do. Don’t get me wrong. We don’t always eat healthy, but I do try and have the girls eat veg in most of their dinners. And it’s good for when you’re shopping you won’t impulse buy. You’ll only buy what you need. Unfortunately we’re not lucky enough to have the ability to ‘Extreme Coupon’ buy here in the U.K., but I would be SO one of those mums!
  5. I’m not afraid to say that I buy some of the girls clothes and shoes secondhand. I use ‘eBay’ and ‘Vinted’ to buy really nice secondhand stuff for both girls. Mainly Darcey because Marnie gets all of Darcey’s Hand-Me-Downs. What I do buy is always in great condition and they are just happy to have something new.
    I buy Birthday presents/Christmas presents throughout the year. So when it comes to the big day. I’m not struggling financially. And I don’t “over buy”. I try and get what Darcey asks for. At the moment she’s just happy to have a few things. Marnie is just happy with an empty box! Why does a two year old need loads of stuff?! I don’t understand parents that just buy Β£100’s of stuff for them. I have a budget for each occasion and stick to it. Children don’t need all the stuff! I also make the girls birthday cakes too. I’m not paying someone else to do it when I know I can do just as well. Now I know some parents won’t even attempt to bake. But it’s not hard. Give it a go. You might surprise yourself! Cake below is from 2017.

Once I think of others along the way. I’ll note them down. I guess what I’m saying is love within your means. If you can afford all the nice, expensive stuff. Good for you! I guess if I was still working full time, I would probably spend more. Fact is, I’m not and I had to make major changes. Maybe when I can get a full time job, once Marnie has started full time school. I’ll be able to work more hours, but for now our situation works for us and we still do nice things with the girls and make memories that I didn’t really have as a child. So already the girls have a better childhood than what I did and that’s I wanted to do for them.

Half term is over…!

This week has been full of fun stuff! We kicked the week off with trip to the park in the next town, as their children didn’t have a half term this week we knew it would be quiet. So we made the most of it. Also popped into The Range to get some bits to craft during the week.

Tuesday saw us go to MK Gymnastics Centre for the playgym they run every week. Both girls loved it. Marnie just walked around everywhere saying “what’s that?”…. This stage is fun… said no mother ever! πŸ™„

Wednesday, we ventured out to a lake about a ten minute drive from our house. Darcey and Matt rode their bikes round and I walked/jogged round with them. Marnie was in a seat on the back of Matt’s bike. It was such a lovely day. The sun was shining and temperature was OK. Once we got all the way round we had Ice Creams and Hot Chocolates. Not in that order.

Thursday we packed up some snacks and headed over to the local Safari Park to see the animals! Once you drive in. There’s a bit where you can drive round and be super close to the animals. We had arrived just as it was opening. So all the animals were getting up and really active! Especially the monkeys! The baby ones jumped on our car and were playing together. It was so funny to watch! One monkey also thought it was appropriate to play with his bits on my bonnet. In front of us. πŸ˜‚ We saw all the giraffes being let out of their house too. I’ve never seen a giraffe run. It was fascinating to watch. It’s like they’re running in slow motion. Once the drive Safari was done. We walked around the rest of the Park. We saw meerkats, porcupines, otters, emu’s, wallaby’s, pigs, goats, penguins, lemurs, red pandas, elephants, rhinos, birds, sea lions and probably more. They have a bird house where you can go in and feed them some nectar. Darcey and Marnie FREAKED OUT! As soon as we went in the birds came flocking over to us and started fighting on who was going to get the small pot of nectar first! The noise they made was like they were being murdered! We weren’t doing that. Just for the record.

Friday we had Darcey’s friend and her little brother over for lunch. Their mum is pregnant with her third child (she’s mental and I’ve told her that on a regular basis!). So I offered to have them over for a few hours to give her a break. I’m nice like that. They played and made their own pizzas for lunch. It’s the best way to get a child to eat. Let them help you make their own food. πŸ˜‰. Well. Sometimes it works. Sometimes it’s a flop.

Over the weekend Matt was back at work. So I caught up on Teen Mom 2 and did Marnie’s birthday card to send into her favourite channel – CBeebies. The first programme she really watched was ‘Sarah & Duck’. So I based her birthday card on that. I think I’ve done a really good job.

It just needs her photo on the top of Sarah’s head and I can then send it in. I did Darcey’s back in October, but it wasn’t shown. So hopefully Marnie’s will be.

So that was our Half Term! Busy and lots of memories made. I was back at work today and I missed being there. It was busy today which is how I like it.

Adios for now. I’ll be back over the weekend. We have my cousin and his boys coming over on Friday for the weekend.

That will be a fun read!

Last week of term

Darcey was very excited on Friday. Because this week is half term for her! A week off school, but don’t let that fool you. It’s not a week off getting up early. Oh no, Marnie is teething (big bottom teeth) and the amber beads are not doing their job this time. They’re usually very trustworthy, but they can’t help the pain of the nasty back teeth! She’s got temperatures of 39 and struggling to sleep due to a nasty cough too. Poor girl is powering through though! Still giving smiles and annoying Darcey! Over the weekend we had the usual swimming class in the morning and Darcey impressed me so much this week! She can swim not only without a float, but can swim using her arms too. She stops a few times for the width of the pool, but she’s doing it! She’s doing so well and it’s amazing to see her progress each week. She had a birthday party and sleepover to attend that day too. So I dropped her off at her former childminders house for her daughters 8th birthday. The theme was MineCraft. Darcey has no idea what that is. But apparently she had the best time and ended up going to bed at 10pm. Almost four hours later than normal! We picked her up on Sunday morning ready to drive to London to see Matt’s Nan, Dad and step mum. “So what did you do at the sleepover then Darcey?” Her reply “I don’t know, I maybe did some dancing and I had pancakes for breakfast”. Great. I’m glad you had no clue what you did! πŸ™„πŸ€¦πŸ½β€β™€οΈ. The drive to London was easy, Blackwall tunnel was clear and we got there in an hour and 20 minutes! Amazing! Our first stop was to Nanna Nina, who has recently moved into a home and she loves it. She does seem so much happier, although gets annoyed at other residents who have no idea what they’re doing. She told us a story of a woman who puts her finger in the sugar bowl, licks it and puts her finger back in. DOUBLE DIPPING! 🀒. Nina is almost 100 and doesn’t look it or acts like it! She’s still got her wits about her. It was lovely seeing her.

We then went over to visit Dave, Jen and the cutest puppy dog, Jasper. Jasper was super excited to see more people at his house and it showed! He was trying to jump out of Jen’s arms when we got to the door. They call him ‘the 100 MPH dog’ he is just mad! But the girls have learnt to love him and there was a completely different atmosphere around him yesterday. Darcey couldn’t stop holding him and wanting to be near him! Now previously, if any dog went near her. She would freak out! To the point where she would scream and try and get to a high place (mainly us having to pick her up). This time. She had already said in the car “I’m going to be brave with jasper today”. She was great with him and so was Marnie. She did freak out at first when Jasper jumped up at her and tried licking her face (he is the same height as her when on his back legs). So she didn’t trust him for a while, but when she saw Darcey playing with him, she was able to give him cuddles. It was lovely to see the girls playing with him.

We took Jasper out for a walk over the common across the road from their house. It had been raining on and off all day, but that doesn’t stop British people going out! Winter coats on. Marnie in her buggy. Raincover on and off we went. It. Was. Flipping. Freezing! It may as well have been snowing. All the “moody clouds” were over head and forced us to walk back home at a quicker pace than when we started!

Around five pm we made the trip back home. This time the Blackwall Tunnel was heaving. We’ve made the same trip many times and every time it shocks me how people drive around that area. Cars pushing in the queue, driving over hatched lines and slip roads they’re not meant to drive down. It’s so bloody annoying and I’m glad Matt drives because I think I would get mega road rage if I were to drive around that part of London.

But we got home at around 7:15pm. Good driving Matt! High five! We put the girls to bed and sat down to watch SAS: Who Dares Wins. If you haven’t watched it. It’s basically some random civilians who have applied to take on the challenge of the tough process in becoming apart of the SAS. They don’t actually get into the SAS in real life, but it’s the last standing who are told they could do it! It’s great, but sometimes a hard watch! Watch it. See if you could do it. I couldn’t! I think I’d cry at the first challenge.

I’ve started doing my own projects this week too. Photos to follow. I get my inspiration from Pinterest. I ❀️ Pinterest. I look for craft projects and ideas for dinners mainly. We have a 4 weekly food planner for dinner at home and it’s primarily recipes from Pinterest. So thanks Pinterest bloggers for your great ideas! my calligraphy needs some work, but I think my first attempts are pretty awesome!

We love UNO in our house! Darcey picked up the rules pretty quickly. So we have evenings where we just play games. The girls love playing with PlayDoh”-doh-doh-doh” too!

Now it’s half term. A week with both girls and no work. It’s going to be great… She says. 😬🀫

What a weekend!

So the weekend started with Darcey swimming. Saturday morning. Nine am! She’s doing so well and managed to swim without a float again this weekend! Super proud. Hopefully she’ll be going up to the next hat fairly soon, which she’s super excited about!

The afternoon was lovely, with a party for my friends little girl and catching up with a couple of the girls I used to work with at the school. After having a chat about being mums, it seems to me that I’m not the only one who struggled with a baby. I always knew I wasn’t the only one, but it’s comforting to know I’m not alone when it comes to the emotions that comes after having a baby. One of the girls I spoke to said that she was in complete shock when she had her first child. She wanted to have her old life back, wanted to just be her own person and not have to wake up in the night and deal with a vomiting, crying baby. The freedom she had before her first child was greatly missed! I loved having Darcey. But it was after having Marnie all those same feelings came about. If anyone is struggling with a first baby, second or if you’re crazy, third baby+. Just know. You’re not alone!

Anyway. Back to the rest of my weekend. So today was a day in London Town with Matt, the girls, sister and brother in law, their boys and matts mum and step dad! It’s started off heading to the train station for ten o’clock. Went to the platform the screen told us to go to. I quickly noticed that there was no way a train could get to the platform we were on. There was a huge STOP sign on the track. So after asking the guard at the top of the stairs. “Yeah it’s been changing all morning. It’s platform 3”. So over the bridge we go. With a coffee, two babychinos and a buggy! Only to be told that no, in fact the train will come along on the 1st platform. So back over we go. Still unsure that was the right decision. Announcement over the tannoy “the train now approaching platform 3 is the 10:00 service to St Pancras”. πŸ€¦πŸ½β€β™€οΈ “Right. Run Darcey!” I pick the buggy up. Run up the stairs with Darcey and rush her back down whilst the train is just about approaching the platform. The doors open and we’re half way down the stairs! “Hurry up, Darcey!” We made it! The children sat down and played a game of Harry Potter Top Trumps (the best Top Trumps!) and the surprisingly quick journey to London began.

Once we got to London, it was a slow walk down to the underground to catch a train to Knightsbridge to spend the day at the Science Museum. Darcey liked parts of it, but she managed to spend most of her time acting like she was a pre teen. “Ow I’m bored, I already know that, pick me up, I know”, but she loved the interactive parts. My nephews were well into it all though. Which was great to watch! I’m not quite sure what Darcey will be interested in yet. There’s nothing really that I can think of that’s she’s desperate to want to learn. When does that happen? How does that happen? I’ve tried to get her excited about things like Netball, dance, drawing. Nothing really captures her attention. πŸ€·πŸ½β€β™€οΈ

My Sister in Law and I played a great game of “bogies”. If you don’t know the game. It’s great. You walk around a public place (normally a library or supermarket) anywhere works. And take it in turns to say “bogies” until you’re actually shouting it. The person who can say it the loudest, wins. Simple, yet hilarious game! I won every game we played. Obviously. 😏

14k steps later. We got home and the girls are going to bed at 7:30pm. I’m knackered. Matt is sore and the girls are still bouncing around! Why?! How?!

Goodnight! 😴